have you ever known?

the art of

letting go your happiness

and trade it off with your loved one

is the hardest part

of loving someone.

when the one you loved

currently in love with

the other one

outside

your fantasy,

it feels like

you are just a speck

of dust

within the galaxy.

a letter to the mountain

once you pick a peak
please consider the highest
as your vital interest
to be conquered
up into the
bright
sky
.
let
me begin
by telling you
sort of things,
.
the
higher you climb
it will stifle your soul
and as the wind might not swirl gently
as you felt earlier
.
then the sun would probably
send you 'til the
culmination
reach
its
catastrophe level of /////////////////////////// - should we call it - love ?
.
because merely the irrationality
play a dominance role
above the rational choices
to not to climb
higher // and ///// a // more ///// higher?
leaving the ground
by no such bias emotions
.
all ended up
like when you only head up
seeing the bright sky for the twice
but nothing can changes
what already done
.
you brought me an end
to find a way back
to not to look
who's by
your
.
.
.
.
side
.

Tick and Tock

I found myself hide in the dark.
Maybe it was my choice, or maybe I just being chosen to be there.
I found myself lack of answers,
for who I am today and for who I'm gonna be.

Stereotype will lasts for the rest of the time, if we let it glued to the tick and tock.
Mutual perception is irreversible construct along with the tick and tock.
Does the tick and tock care about what's really happen to me?

I'm not sure enough to answer,
once again I should remind you to recognize that I found myself in the dark.
Could I see what's being happen to myself and the tick and tock?
Should I pretend like there's no tick and tock?

Wait... what?
Nope.

I guess I found the light in the darkest night when I throw up my head in the dark,
there's a connection between stars above the night sky,
even in the darkest night.

So, who you think will be really matter for light up myself?

The stars, I hope it's you.
Not tick, nor tock.  


 

Kembali.

Satu postingan di tahun 2014 yang lalu cukup menggambarkan betapa diri ini tidak mampu beranjak sejenak untuk menuliskan sepatah pun kata di tengah hiruk-pikuknya hari-hariku. Setidaknya hanya poin ke-6 dalam resolusi tahun lalu yang tidak mampu kupenuhi hehe.

Lulus dari SMA dan beranjak ke jenjang kuliah, memulai gaya hidup baru sebagai anak rantau di bumi priangan. Beradaptasi dengan gaya pergaulan yang jauh lebih luas dan membiasakan untuk membaca essay-essay tentang perdebatan realisme dengan liberalisme, teori falsifikasi Karl Popper, perjanjian Westphhalia, dan hal-hal yang semula begitu asing bagiku.

Tak luput, kunjungan ke kost teman-teman seperjuangan untuk bersenda gurau hingga berjibaku dengan banyaknya bahan bacaan dan presentasi menjelang ujian. Saling berbagi, ya bisa dibilang begitu.

Menemukan lingkungan baru dengan teman-teman dari beragam latar belakang budaya yang sangat berbeda begitu menyenangkan dan kadang membuat lupa waktu!

Tapi aku tahu apa yang harus kulakukan,

bersyukur dan terus berjuang.

Karena hari esok akan lebih menantang bagimu, bagiku, bagi kita.

Aku kembali, 2015 akan menjadi warna-warni hari-hariku.

Selamat malam. Terimakasih sudah berkunjung sebentar di MesinWaktu ini :)