Maybe it's . . . you?

Finally, i felt the sense of that "electricity" (again) when all of this serebrum fulfilled with a shadow of indescribable mystery of life.

How can i realize what should be realized before. It's too late. I've made a wrong decision. Made a wrong way of thought. There's no chance to rewind.

Now, what i can do is letting the life's story go on and on. See what it may takes. Hear what i should not hear.

Based on the harsh things above, i would like to rebuild what am i tried to build in several years ago. DREAMS. Yeah, i won't kill my dream for the second times with the same "wrong" way anymore. Killing a dream for another (fake) dream merely make you reach none of them.

uuh! 

TimeMachine, could you bring me back to any old days?

I'm lack of hopes for reaching what i wanna reach.

For believing what should i keep believes on.

I'm craving.

Keep on turning and searching what is missing.

Until i found what it hopes about.

The sense of "electricity" which running through my vein.

The shadow of  someone which creeps into my nights.

Have you ever think?

That shadow maybe,

it's you.

Januari? Ini Januari?

Ini Januari?

Januari 2011 ini?

Hmmm je-a-en-u-a-er-i, betul kah?

Tidak mungkin! Tidak.

Saya tidak yakin ini bulan Januari karena semua begitu cepat.

Di mana, kah, Desember?

Ini 2010, kan? Belum 2011 ...

Iya ini Januari.

2011. 24. H-2 dari lembaran baru.

H-4 dari sebuah awal perjalananan sesungguhnya.

H-8 dari sebuah jalan menuju Februari ceria.

Awal dilema.

Titik didih yang menanti.

Segudang emosi yang membendung dan membelit fikir

Awal pilur perjuangan dan pemungkas.

JANUARI.

TERSERAH

Masalah 1

Q: Kok lo nge-junk di blog lo sendiri sih?

A: Sebenernya gue ga mau nge-junk di blog gue sendiri. Tapi ya terserah gue kan?

Masalah 2

Q: Gue mau makan tapi bingung antara makan kue atau nasi, padahal bentar lagi gue olahraga. Menurut lo gimana?

A: Ya.. terserah lo aja itu, kan yang makan lo.

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Lihat kata berwarna merah di atas? Ada dua kan? Nah sebenernya kedua kata itu sama. Baik secara penulisan atau pun arti dari kata tersebut, kalau kita hanya membaca satu kata itu saja tentu memiliki arti yang sama.

Tapi coba perhatikan kedua masalah di atas! Kalau dibaca dan dicermati baik-baik pasti bisa terkesan beda maknanya.. padahal sama-sama mengekspresikan tanggapan/respon.

Gini nih..

Jadi kalau di masalah 1 itu situasinya menyangkut diri kita sendiri.
Ketika ada orang bertanya pada kita dan kita menjawab dengan kata terserah
(sehalus apa pun cara kita mengucapkannya)

Akan terkesan sangat egois.

Kenapa?

Karena saat itu juga ketika kita menggunakan kata terserah kita seolah-olah menggunakannya untuk menyanggah apa yang orang lain pikirkan terhadap sesuatu yang terjadi pada diri kita. Kalau dari masalah satu sih gini:

• Orang lain itu kan simpati dengan kita dan bertanya mengapa kita nge-junk di blog kita sendiri, berarti kan secara tidak langsung orang itu peduli sama kita sampai-sampai dia mempertanyakan hal yang janggal tentang postingan blog kita.
• Tapi karena kita menjawab terserah bisa jadi orang lain berpikiran kita tuh sombong banget ga mau menghargai tanggapan atau pendapat orang lain, jadi kesannya di sini kata terserah itu menunjukkan keegoisan kita.
• Egois? Semua orang wajar kok egois karena memang dasarnya manusia memiliki sifat egois sejak dilahirkan. Tapi kalau egoisnya berlebih itu yang tidak baik.

Kalau dalam masalah 2 beda lagi nih
Kata terserah itu jadi seolah-olah menunjukkan sikap cuek kita yang masa bodo
Yah egois juga sih sebenernya

Kenapa?

Karena saat itu juga kata terserah mengekspresikan kalau kita tuh ga mau peduli dengan masalah orang lain yang sebenernya orang itu butuh saran/pendapat kita. Yah walau mungkin kita nggak bermaksud seperti itu (mungkin maksud aslinya ingin memberi kebebasan pada si empunya pertanyaan) tapi tetep aja kurang sopan kalau cuma bilang terserah, apalagi kalau nggak di kasih sedikit komentar. Misalnya lo bilang,

"menurut gue sih lo makan nasi aja soalnya kan abis ini lo mau olahraga tapi ya terserah juga sih.."

Dengan lo ngomong kaya gitu pasti orang yang nanya ke lo seneg deh soalnya lo mau care dan yah bisa dibilang mau mikirin lo, ngebantu lo, dengan hal sekecil itu. Percaya apa nggak, banyak kok orang di luar sana yang masih menghargai pendapat orang lain.. sekecil apapun pendapat yang lo kasih itu! Yah masalah keputusan dia itu sejalan sama pendapat lo apa nggak itu sih urusan belakangan.. yang penting lo udah mau ngebantu orang itu.

Pernah terpikir ga sih kalau orang minta pendapat kita itu kenapa? Terus kenapa nanya nya harus sama kita? Kenapa nggak ke orang lain aja?

Apalagi kalau sampe ada orang yang nanya ke kita tuh sampe berulang kali karena kita nggak ngejawab atau ngasih jawaban yang nggak sesuai harapan dia (iya/nggak bukannya terserah)

Itu artinya kita berarti banget bagi orang itu. Keberadaan kita diakui dan disadari. Yang terpenting kita itu dihargai :)

Orang itu percaya dengan kita, dengan pendapat kita dan pemikiran kita. Bisa juga dibilang kalau kita tuh bisa diandalkan bagi mereka. Bangga kan kalau lo bisa jadi kebanggan orang lain? Dianggap sebagai orang terpercaya apa nggak senang? Namun sayangnya kadang kita ga peka sama hal-hal sesepele ini. Mungkin bagi kita orang itu nyusahin aja karena mempertanyakan hal yang sepele banget dan kayanya ga ada hubungannya deh dengan kita. Atau lo mikir, itu kan dia yang bakal jalanin pasti dia lebih tau lah mana yang baik buat dia jadi ya coba jawab sendiri aja bisa kan?

Nah, kalau lo berpikiran gitu lo rugi!

Lo udah membuang kepercayaan orang itu.

Lo udah mengecewakan orang itu.

Lo udah berhasil mengasah sifat egois lo
Congrats for your failure way to be a good friend!

Nah nggak mau ngecewain orang lain kan?

Kurangi merespon dengan kata terserah dan coba untuk lebih peka :)

Eh eh gue belum buat PR nih sebenernya, main posting blog aja ya haha #curcol? hahaha :P
Duh kok jadi ngebahas soal terserah sih? Kenapa deh lo Ping? Ping? hahaha.. dan jawabannya:

T-E-R-S-E-R-A-H-!

Eh coba lo hitung deh ada berapa kata terserah di postingan ini?
hahaha
wkwk yah blablabla wkwk

Night all, wanna do my home work asap so see ya ;)

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enjoy your day reading :)

3 in 1

Hoo-lala! Yeah I'm really miss this kinda funny-weird-freak time machine! Umm I've gone for 2 weeks (I guess) and within that 2 weeks, actually I have so many experience and argument about my life and the surroundings.

This post i called 3 in 1 because in this post i tell you 3 stories in one post :)

If I can restart that 2 weeks maybe I was created this post like this :

Senin, 13 September 2010

The Third Trip

Wuaah.. It almost 7 p.m. here. Feel so tired and wet (haha). My green jacket was allowing rain to fall in me. Sooo? Yeah, I'm wet! Stopped taxi, walk alone with rain drops accompanying me, and finally … I arrived at home safely :)

Yea! I'm happy, thankful, and I wanna watch that movies again!

Movies?

Okay, let me explain about my activity today and why I've arrived at home wetly in the evening.

So, today I've a plan with my friend and best friend *HUHA* to watch some movies in our favorites (cheap and chic) cinema. We were make this plan from long and loooong time ago. Yeah we met at somewhere at 11 a.m. then we was going to the cinema by taxi.

Yeah.. 11.30 a.m. we arrived there! That's my third trip with them *HUHA* and at the same destination to do the same activity with the same person we did it like the 2 trip before! Actually the films will starts at 12.45 and 14.30 p.m. umm watch back-to-back Indonesian films in the same day hahaha. So we used the about 1 hour free time to talking and playing at the bridge hahaha. FYI, in front of the cinema we can see a bridge and we always used our free time before watch movies there for enjoying time at the bridge :D

Maybe it's sounds really (really) weird! But, trust me, that's so fun and you can counting how many people used that bridge within 1 hour hahaha. We did it! And the result is 31 people OH YEAH hahahaha xD

Umm ready to watch! First movie is "Sang Pencerah" a film by Hanung Brahmantio. The story is about Ahmad Dahlan and his way to make Muhamadiyah at Indonesia. Overall i think i love this movie, the story, effects, background-setting all nice :D

And for the second movie is "Darah Garuda", the 2nd section of the "Merah Putih" trilogy. The story in this movies is about war to reach the freedom of Indonesia in 1945 :) Same like the movie before, i love this movie to. The epic story is soo interesting and li'l bit funnier than the first one.

Hey, look! Between two pictures above, you can see a the same face in the middle of each picture. Have you found it? Same people in different movies and character. And i've watch him back-to-back hahaha.

Who is he?

~ENG ING ENG~

Jreng..

Lukman Sardi

Yeah, that person is Lukman Sardi! He is a talented Indonesian actor and he is my favorite one hurray :D hihihi back-to-back movies with Lukman Sardi haha.

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Sabtu, 25 September 2010

Unite? Of Course We Can

Oh lalala really... I'm happy right now! Actually maybe today is my last change to wearing my lovely St.Vincentius basketball jersey that i've used since 2008. But, in today friendship match with St.Markus 1 at that place, our basketball team were winning the all (girl and boy) matches :D

Just FYI, in the first friendship matches with St.Markus that was held in April 2010 at St.Vincentius all the basketball teams (girl and boy) was winning the matches too! So, in today matches, i've ended my game successfully hihi. Yeah, I'm not good for playing basketball. But i trust, when all the player come together, unite, of course we can face anything :)

Ummmmm I wanna really really and really..... miss all the match in my junior high school times, but I'm gonna REALLY MISS :

Shanti, Vena, Cha-Cha, Audrey, Vita, Claudia, Ani and our

yellow-red-black jersey :(

Whoa~ love them all! Love the matches! The memories :"(

We're unite in SERVIAM, eh? Hmm :)

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Selasa, 28 September 2010

One Day Before ...

Umm almost midnight! It means we'll should say GOODBYE 28 and HELLO 29 of September (as soon as possible cause I'm making a fast update right now! haha) :)

Today is 28th September, so?

• One day before 9th grade retreat
• One day before 2/3 years *HUHA* hahahahahahahahaha :))
  
• One day before leave this blog again :"( huhu..

I was preparing my (school)backpack for tomorrow retreat. More than four pieces of shirts, two sweaters, one pair of groovy purple socks, for pieces of short and long pants. Just for 3 days retreat hehehe that's too much i think haha :D

I hope tomorrow my friends from 9th grade and me will have a 3 days amazing day together. Making laughs together and everything funny under HIS blessing :)

Well, it almost MIDNIGHT you know?

I will leave this TimeMachine so bye bye bye all :*
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enjoy reading ;)